This Paper Is Due When?!?

I can't concentrate. I try. I really do. But it doesn't work. I have this essay due tomorrow. It isn't long. It isn't all that hard (though I am having a hard time really understanding the project). I just can't seem to actually work on it.
I have been having this problem a lot lately. I think I am burning out on school. I have been in school for so long, it is hard to think of not going to school. And I am not getting anywhere. I am 21 and I don't even have an Associate degree. I am not on the path to a bachelor's degree. I am just kind of stagnant. I hate this feeling. The feeling of not going anywhere. Stuck in a dead end job. Going to school more because I like the idea than because I actually like the experience.
The problem is, I am not a self starter. I have to have some incentive (past just personal growth) in order to do something. I get up because I have to go to work. Or I have to meet friends. If I could, I think I would lie in bed and watch tv and movies all day. And that is what really scares me: Turning into my mother. And so I press forward and forward and forward and forward, with no clear idea of where I am going. I am supposed to have it all together. I am supposed to be on the path to success. I did everything right. I got good grades in High School. I got into a good university, with a partial scholarship for academics. But I went wrong somewhere. I got scared. I got scared of owing so much money. I got scared of where that university was leading me. Truth be told, I didn't really fit in at that school. I had a group of friends who also didn't fit in, but looking at the big picture, I was in the wrong place at the wrong time. Wasting money and spiraling down into this pit that I find myself in now. 21 years old. Still living at home. And completely lost. And alone.
I know this is all very depressing, and I'm sorry. Thank you if you lasted this long. I know that my emo rants even bore me, haha. It is just that the time to sign up for classes is coming up, and I am kind of at a crossroads in deciding what to do. What I really want to do is just drive away. Bring some books, my ipod and a car charger and just drive somewhere. The problem with that is that I need money, I can't just leave my job, and I wouldn't want to go alone. It is all great in the books, but in real life I am a single woman and it isn't safe to stay with strangers. Sometimes I feel like I have missed my youth. And I think I have in some ways. Oy, enough with the depressing. As a reward for those who have actually read all of this (honestly, I would be happy if someone read any of this), I will stop talking. haha. Nah, how about a bad joke instead? What is the difference between a bad golfer and a bad sky diver? One goes whack and then says "damn" and one says "damn" and then goes whack. :D
Peace, Joe